exotic sequoia
it's a really long thing but to sum it up i've had bad ocd symptoms for the past 1,5 year and my mom finally is trying to get me help related to it. rn it's like much worse. i keep having these things that i have to do stuff a certain number of times and rn it's just so that i keep making random sounds like constantly. and i mean constantly. it's like every second.. it's just messing with everything. i had to skip the past 2 weeks of school cuz my symptoms wouldn't have a break. it just sucks. it's hard to be happy and i cry a lot more because of having to deal with this. i can't even go on a simple walk without having an urge to touch every single leaf on the ground or take a random rock with me.
and before anyones like "Isn'T ocD JuSt HaVinG to hAvE EvEryTHiNG peRfEcTlY", no it's not. it's much worse than that and i wish it was just having to have everything perfectly. my mom's guessing it's because of this "longcovid" thing where the covid kind of stays with you for like an unknown amount of time and it has caused people to have a bunch of allergies and even like ocd, tics, etc... i had to go gluten free, oat-free, milk-free (like not lactose free, completely milk-free), nut-free, after having covid. it caused me a bunch of allergies and most likely this ocd thing too. i haven't been diagnosed yet, but we're gonna (hopefully) get it diagnosed soon.
jaunty zenith
