I’m just so useless and shit that I fr stay in bed for fucking hours to the point my back starts hurting, I just feel like every day I lose another friend and a again and a again until I might not even have any friends anymore I keep thinking of ways to die and hurt myself really didn’t help that someone (used to be my friend) found dirt on me and got me banned from a server I liked and I pretty much deleted my old account just to escape the hate and harassment I just want to die at this point and be forgotten like sand
#TS: Suicidal
elder cedar
grand mica
That's sounds horrible, and just excausting. But i whoudent say your useless shit, then whatever it is, you achivent something in your life, your existence made some people happy, even when it was years ago, or as a child with your old friends, you made them happy, and this maby even change there life a bit, having a childhood they probably don't remeber after a few years, but they don't need to remeber to know that that was a step to turn them into the person there now. And also the future could still bring stuff, maby you find a group online you get close to after a while, when you keep trying, something good have to come out eventually. I know a very nice community from a free drawing game, there kinda silly, but always wellcome to new commers, especially when you like to hang out in a vc, you get to know them very well :3 (when you like to, I can give you the link to the server, and you don't have to draw or anything like that, there are multiple people who were never in the game but still are there.) ((oh and just so, I whont forget you, your a part of my history and maby future when you join the server, your also always wellcome to dm me uwu))
This can maby also help #🆘｜crisis-help-channels
elder cedar
Okay thanks
elder cedar
I feel lost
elder cedar
I’m lost in my own thoughts and memories stuck in my own personal mind trapped in a hell full of violence nightmares that I can’t run away from im scared and lost