strong walrus
i dont think i can do this anymore. i just left 2 of my best friends , because i was overthinking too much and had too many negative thoughts. i miss them so much and it hasn't even been 3 days. i wanna say that I'm sorry, that i regret it , but i dont wanna go back , it'll be dumb. i literally said i won't be coming back.. well to one of them. i told the other one i will be back as soon as i get a positive mindset and when i get healthier. i dont know how to tho.
i just wish i wasn't like this , always pushing away the one's that help me the most , the one's that genuinely love me and care about me. i will end up being all alone if i continue like this. i hate that I'm like this. i hate every little thing about me. im a complete and total mess , a mistake even. how do i stop being like this? why cant i be normal and not ruin every friendship / relationship? i am a caring person , i am a nice person , but i always seem to ruin everything. is it even worth staying here?
chrome veldt