Don’t force yourself to mimic emotions you don’t feel, it only hides your struggle from potential helpers. Also on that note, I’ve found that while people are often unaware of my depression as I assume many most likely are with yours, when individuals learn the truth, you find who are your true friends, those extending a helping hand to an individual in need. Show the word your struggles, and some will respond with assistance. Some may not, but some will, if not immediately, then eventually.
#I'm lost...
prisma thicket
Unfortunately, or at least this is what I’ve found, friendships are much harder to maintain than they are to forget. Sometimes it feels not worth the effort, but it is. Or at least, I hope it is. I don’t have many friends myself, but I try my best to stay connected with those that I have, even if it can often feel as if we are distant.
As for love, would you say you have a genuine desire to show affection towards your boyfriend?
Then what would you say makes you feel as if it’s fabricated?
It’s unfortunately the case that you gotta put in constant effort, otherwise it sorta turns into a doom spiral. As friends feel perhaps pushed away, you feel more withdrawn, causing friends to feel more pushed away. It can sometimes feel exhausting but hopefully it’s worth it. At the end of the day though, sometimes it just means you haven’t found someone who understands you for who you are. Those individuals exist, (I think me talking here is proof of that) it’s just a matter of finding them.
Would you describe yourself as introverted, someone who finds ease in being alone? I know with me it’s often the case that while it’s easier and sometimes more fulfilling to be alone, I really want to be with someone else all the same. Life can sometime present us with these conundrums unfortunately.
At the same time however, in a relationship, the object is not always to shower the other with constant signs of affection. I good connection can weather the alone and enjoy the together. Would you say your boyfriend is capable of such or do you feel he feels less loved when you feel more secluded?
It’s good that you at least have those connections. Use them to the best of your ability!
Have you ever tried explaining it to him?
Do you know that, or do you assume that?
Has he told you or shown signs of that?
Oh, I just got a bit confuse because of what you said earlier.
If you don’t really want to be secluded, have you ever attempted to, in those down times, see if your boyfriend is willing to be that individual to break the loneliness. If he’s truly caring, and I believe he is, he’ll not only be happy to help, but also at the same time feel happy being with his loved one again!