life is tough please help.

[warm tendon]

anywhere i go, ill make enemies.
even unintentionally
if i talk too much im burned by society, if i talk too little, society calls me weird, if i talk normally, well.. i can't talking in real life is really hard for me.
ive absolutely been burned in the past to the extent that i feel every word can be used against my reputation in a harmful way
so i speak as little as possible and i come across as weird. when i do talk i say the wrong stuff and over correct with more wrong stuff. its just really hard to maintain friendships for me. eventually all who i have helped turn their backs on me and treat me as an outsider. im absolutely isolated

i need help. i lost myself. idk who i am anymore. i surely cant be expected to maintain a good mental health if i have no friends, dont know who i am, and everyone hates me

[pseudo epoch]

Id contact someone at #🆘｜crisis-help-channels when possible. Theyre professionals

[warm tendon]

ok.

[warm tendon]

fine

[pseudo epoch]

if you need more help dont hesitate to ping me, but all i can do is direct you to the right place

[warm tendon]

but like i dont want to talk to people online

[pseudo epoch]

if you need help in real life, id reccomend going to a local police/fire station/hospital or starting therapy (if you havent already)

[warm tendon]

i do have therapy. but i literally just got a text from my closest friend saying shes breaking contact with me.

i might just give up on life sooner or later. i literally don't have any friends in school anymore

[warm tendon]

no i just want to know if people genuinly give a fuck about my life.

i literally have no one irl to talk to anymore that hurts alright?

[pseudo epoch]

alright

[warm tendon]

in dark i will always see motivaiton. I have decided to use my anger and sadness for something positive. Fuck being a wuss. ill hit the gym better myself. im tired of feeling like shit every day