😭

[strong wind]

I want kill myself but i cant, my family wont be happy of it

I dont know what to do to end this

[fair storm]

why do you want to do it?

you shouldn't live for your family, live for yourself

no mater who you are or what you identify as you're always valid

[strong wind]

I want to live for myself too, but something tells me to do it

[strong wind]

No im not bro

[fair storm]

you are

[strong wind]

prove it

😭

[fair storm]

you're a living person with your own thoughts and emotions

that makes you valid

[strong wind]

🥺

Right now everything is weird, I don't understand my life, my thoughts, I don't understand anything

[fair storm]

that's fine, you don't have to

[strong wind]

I only want live and be happy

[fair storm]

and you can take all the time you need to figure it out

but ending things early won't lead to that happiness

[strong wind]

What is happiness?

How can i be normal 😭

Fucking BPD

[fair storm]

normal isn't real

it's based on what the average conservative wants you to be

it sucks

no one is actually normal

doesn't make you lesser then the rest of us

[strong wind]

I try

[strong wind]

Why?

😭 i dont like the BPD

That shit

Kills me

😭

[strong wind]

I'll try to don't be thinking/saying bad things about me

Like im stupid or dumb

But

Its hard 🥺

[fair storm]

that's alright

I don't expect you to handle self hate alone

which is why I'm reminding you you're valid

[fair storm]

I didn't say you need to like having bpd, I meant you're not alone in the struggle

bpd isn't a benefit but it doesn't remove from your right to be happy

[strong wind]

😭

Im never happy bro

I try to be

I think i need a girlfrined

girlfriend*

Or boyfriend

Idk

I need anyone

[fair storm]

you can also just have a friend

is your family supportive of you?

[strong wind]

What if they think nothing is happening to me, like they don't know anything about this?

[strong wind]

Ye?

I want to have anyone who love me irl

[fair storm]

have they shown any signs they might not be supportive before?

if not you should probably tell them

if they did, please seek professional help, I don't have the tools to help you

[strong wind]

eemmmm

But if they dont know nothing of this

[strong wind]

They dont know nothing

How they will be supportive if the dont know this shits😭 😭

[fair storm]

do you want them to know?

[winged heath]

#🆘｜crisis-help-channels

[fair storm]

thanks for the help

[strong wind]

Nono

[fair storm]

alright, could you reach a mental health professional?

[gleaming forge]

In the case of not wanting your parents to know @strong wind , lines like these are invaluable. You can reach a, while not phycologist, someone more professional without telling your parents

[strong wind]

Okeyy

Ty all for helping

[gleaming forge]

👍

[robust isle]

It's a mental health channel, everyone is trying to be helpful 😄

I'm sorry, saw the thread a bit late.