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I always feel terrible at night, often I can't sleep, which sometimes brings me to tears. at night, sometimes it becomes hard for me to breathe, my breathing gets lost from time to time, because I start to remember everything that happened in my life, for example, the realization that another school day will not end perfectly, I study with bastards and a skinhead in the classroom who will start bullying me for nothing, I also remember all my failures in relationships and beatings In my old school, I was humiliated and beaten on video. I went to a psychologist, at first everything was fine, but... it turned out that the psychiatrist gave me pills for aggression, and tried to get me to the hospital faster, and when it didn't work out, she started yelling at me and humiliating me until I left, according to her, I have severe depression and bipolar disorder (which appeared after the pills) and it also seems to her that I have Cotard's syndrome.
I have no luck at all in a relationship, my longest relationship is a month, I'm always falling for either drug addicts or cheaters.
I often think about suicide, but I don't even know if it's worth it.
analog marten
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