TW: SH, Suicide, Panic Crisis | Pridecord | Page 1

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:15 AM

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uhm hi..

I have been with suicidal thoughts since 2022 because of some childhood traumas and the fact that my class hates me because of my body, musical choices, and the fact that im a femboy.

I have self harmed myself many times at the point that i dont know if continue with this or already kill myself, my mother says that im an unsucessul person, and that i will never achieve beign someone like my father or my sister

im underweight rn (49 kg), my legs are full of cuts, my wrists too, i just want to end this

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my panic crisis kick in for no reason, one time i had an terrible one

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i ended slamming my head to a wall, and with the head open

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i hate my depression and ADHD

turbid garnet Apr 27, 2025, 5:33 AM

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Maybe u should try reaching out and getting help with that.Im so sorry all of this is happening to you and u don't deserve any of this.Maybe try to find things u like to do to pass time.I know it's different for everyone but something that helps me with SH thoughts is hugging a stuffed animal and listening to music.Something else I do is take a bath if possible (remove all things around that you could harm yourself with) and I like listening to music all the time.Sometimes music that I can relate with the lyrics helps me for some reason.Most of all I hope things get better for you and there will be people out there willing to care and listen because you ARE important

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:35 AM

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my mother ruined my favorite plush, she said that i was already too old for this like that

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thanks for the help tho <3

turbid garnet Apr 27, 2025, 5:36 AM

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Ohhh

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A pillow?

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Or blanket

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I get stuff with childhood trauma and don't forget that stuff is never your fault <3

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:37 AM

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yeah..

turbid garnet Apr 27, 2025, 5:38 AM

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But either way is there anyway u can get a different form of education

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Or do anything because the way ur being treated in a educational setting isn't right

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:39 AM

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i know i know

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but

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i cant do anything

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im always on my room, crying, or doing things on my wrists

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or legs

turbid garnet Apr 27, 2025, 5:40 AM

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Is there anything u like to do like hobbies?

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:40 AM

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i dont have any hobbie

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i just play on my pc

turbid garnet Apr 27, 2025, 5:40 AM

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Is there anything that interests us

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U*

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:41 AM

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yeah

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i would love to play the electric guitar

turbid garnet Apr 27, 2025, 5:41 AM

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Can u still?

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:41 AM

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i have to learn

turbid garnet Apr 27, 2025, 5:42 AM

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You should.Thats a potential hobby right there

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:42 AM

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yeah

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i have an typical acoustic guitar on my house attic so

turbid garnet Apr 27, 2025, 5:42 AM

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Do u like bracelets?

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:42 AM

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hmm

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50/50

turbid garnet Apr 27, 2025, 5:43 AM

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I mean u could make bracelets

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:43 AM

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i dont like to wear bracelets because of my wrists

turbid garnet Apr 27, 2025, 5:43 AM

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That could potentially be a excuse to stop if u really start to like making and wearing bracelets

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It may seem like a dumb excuse but it's something

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U don't deserve to hurt either

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:44 AM

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i just cant stop doing it

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i bite my nails and fingers too, and the other things

turbid garnet Apr 27, 2025, 5:45 AM

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Its not impossible though

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:45 AM

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i know

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i want to stop and have an normal life but

turbid garnet Apr 27, 2025, 5:46 AM

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It won't be easy at all but i know u can

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:46 AM

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i just cant

muted anchor Apr 27, 2025, 5:46 AM

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Hey I have AUDHD and I also have suicidal thoughts

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and social anixety

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:48 AM

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i joined this server to vent and try to beat my social anxiety

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i just dont want to feel alone again

turbid garnet Apr 27, 2025, 5:48 AM

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And u won't be alone

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:49 AM

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there was an period of my life that i was horribly alone

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uhm, sorry if my english is horribly bad, im from chile

turbid garnet Apr 27, 2025, 5:50 AM

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Its okay

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Is there anyone at all u know u can go to

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:51 AM

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nope

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my friends are stupid and homofobic idiots

turbid garnet Apr 27, 2025, 5:51 AM

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What are ur interests?

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:52 AM

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wdym with interests (my english is basic in some aspects)

turbid garnet Apr 27, 2025, 5:52 AM

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Like shows u watch,fandoms,etc

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:52 AM

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ah

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i like some anime's

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F1, any motorsport

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cars in general, trucks, etc

turbid garnet Apr 27, 2025, 5:53 AM

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Do u mind if I ask u some stuff in dms

nocturne basin Apr 27, 2025, 5:53 AM

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ask me, i will answer

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i like questions

nocturne basin Apr 28, 2025, 2:38 AM

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well, im a bit better today

uneven gulch Apr 28, 2025, 5:58 AM

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nocturne basin well, im a bit better today

That is really good

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🥺

nocturne basin Apr 28, 2025, 5:59 AM

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uneven gulch That is really good

yeah..

turbid garnet Apr 30, 2025, 4:24 AM

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Hey im sorry but can we not vent on other people's things?

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U can ofc make your own

nocturne basin Apr 30, 2025, 4:27 AM

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uh?

lost crypt Apr 30, 2025, 12:06 PM

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turbid garnet Hey im sorry but can we not vent on other people's things?

I apologize I thought it was a community channel

turbid garnet Apr 30, 2025, 1:19 PM

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Its okay

nocturne basin May 1, 2025, 2:32 AM

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lost crypt I apologize I thought it was a community channel

dont worry

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mistakes happen all time

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we are humans

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instead if you are an alien but idk

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ar u an alien 👽?

lost crypt May 1, 2025, 2:39 AM

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Yeah I’m a alien trust

#TW: SH, Suicide, Panic Crisis