no matter how hard i exfoliate no matter the brand of soap no matter how clean I actually am I still feel putrid and abhorant to others eyes and nose and then on the inside its even worse i laugh with friends and i believe they enjoy my company but i hate going out with them i always feel like im using them somehow or ill ask myself a million variations of "why are they friends with you" no matter how hard i pray for the serenity to accept the things i cannot change its still all i can think about.
#I feel disgusting inside and out
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dawn iron
no matter how hard i exfoliate no matter the brand of soap no matter how clean I...
So. Before I started my path of law at 18 years old when I was 17 until 18 I studied medical for EMT and Life guarding so I learned a lot about the body and stuff.
It sounds like abhorrent buildup of sebum and dry skin because while Vitamin B (the yummy stuff you get from the sun) can also be sometimes harmful if you take in too much causing your skin to dry up and be more susceptible to things like itchiness, oily feeling skin, etc the whole 9 yards. Especially for younger men ranging from 21 - 15 its most common that you have a natural oily body and no matter what soap you have it's going to buildup due to growing most men don't stop growing until up to 25. Especially if you're in the dark your body doesn't absorb the light it's supposed to. As for the friends part I completely understand, I have a husband and Ive rejected him giving me money so many times Everytime I do need money I find an excuse not to use his because I feel like it'd be using him, for me it was a last of kindness that turned to be used for me but everyone is different. Nobody is perfect and we sure as hell are not perfect people either. I constantly have oily skin and feel icky going outside because of my looks.
I love playing chess, it's funny I'm actually so unpredictable it's scared people despite me not being that good