#Life. TW: Suicide and Strict Parents

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kindred coral
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My mom, checks my phone without permission, both my parents are Baptist Christians, who are very homophobic. I, am a Bisexual Femboy dating a Trans Male, my mom is the only one who knows.

I want her to stop. She doesn't ever give me privacy, she's even threatened to tell my father, I've thought about suicide via different methods and running away. I'm having to go back to therapy due to her.

This week, I lost one of my friends because I wanted to hang out with them, we haven't talked in 3 months prior to this week, and they thought I was trying to get intro a relationship with them due to this, they brought up me being Poly which I'm not anymore, there's nothing wrong with being Poly or not. But they said I couldn't choose if I'm Poly or not, which pissed me off.

This week as well, I've been bullied for being, gay and overweight. The people I presume were friends but I feel like it's fake at this point and i just don't know what to do.

I'm basically failing in school, I feel like I'm failing my boyfriend, and I'm just sad 24/7. I want to be with my boyfriend and finally be happy. But I feel like I would ruin their life, I haven't told them any of this, I don't want to hurt them, I want to make them happier and not have to worry about me, I love them so much, I would do anything for them. I want to be with them, I have to, I want to have a breakdown as ik writing all of this because of how much of a failure I feel like.

Thanks for listening, Ocean.

winter stratus
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I know these sound pretty cheap since everyone says them, but I'm so sorry you're dealing with all of that. You don't deserve any of that crap just for being you. I highly, highly doubt you're a failure. You're trying. That's all anyone can ask for, right? I know that I don't know you and am just a stranger on the internet, but I believe in you. I can't offer much advice other than talking to a counselor about the bullying or a teacher. And maybe you could seek reassurance from your boyfriend. Something tells me he doesn't think that you're failing him. I really hope you get some good soon. Take care.

brisk nymph
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hey guys im new here and my strict parents almost murdered me because my mom literally told my step-dad to murder me but i am okay now and im staying at my friends house and her parents are much nicer and my step father is in jail for probably 30-70 yrs and my mom had escaped

rotund dock
rotund dock
brisk nymph
rotund dock
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thats ok

brisk nymph
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basically my step dad played as a distraction while my "mom" got out

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i saw her get out through the living room window, i was on the couch thinking about life i was so scared :<

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my life was really hard i got through lots of stuff like abus3, humiliation and getting bullied and manupilated

rotund dock
brisk nymph
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i was also su!sidal but now i live with my friend jessica

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and im happy here that they took me in !

rotund dock
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im glad

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i hope you the best of luck

brisk nymph
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what about you are you okay?

brisk nymph
rotund dock
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plus i have thought of committing suicide and questioning my life choices but i never brought myself to doing it

brisk nymph
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Ohh no im sorry to hear that :<

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i hope u get better soon

rotund dock
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thx

brisk nymph
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Does your parents know your LGBTQ+ ?

rotund dock
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no i haven't told them yet and i dont know when to say

brisk nymph
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Well you dont have to if they are too strict

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Something else my "parents" did was they sold her away.

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oops i mean my sis

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They sold my sis away

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They dont deserve to be parents ngl

rotund dock
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fr

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that is just cruel

brisk nymph
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i loved her so much

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i wanna see her again

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I dont have much information i was probably 11 at the time

rotund dock
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how old was your sister when they did it

brisk nymph
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idk she was like 3-4 years younger than me so probably 7?

rotund dock
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cause if it was at a young age they deserve to be in jail no offence

brisk nymph
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but thats disgusting cause the only information i got from the police is that she was sold to a place called the "Shahmangi Club"

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and theres a club behind it and thats cruel.

rotund dock
brisk nymph
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Are they homophobic?

rotund dock
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no i dont think so most likey not

brisk nymph
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Maybe you can tell them its your choice

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My new "parents" are so much better than the old ones

rotund dock
brisk nymph
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i can go all out on them unlike i was forced to hold everything in with the other parents

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they treat me like their own child and im just so grateful

rotund dock
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im glad

brisk nymph
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ty

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i even told them im gay and they didnt care they said "your still our chid"

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that was heartwarming for my life compared to what i went through

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i was too young to witness what i witnessed.

rotund dock
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thats what you call good parents people who understand everything

brisk nymph
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yeah

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honestly one person called my whole life story fake after i vented to them i thought they trusted me and they said that my story was made up and that honestly hurt.

rotund dock
brisk nymph
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imo i also think my life sounds like its from a wattpat story lol

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and also i broke up w my boyfriend sprout