I fucked up horribly and i think i just ruined my friendship with one of my best friends. i accidentally lashed out at her and tried making her solve a problem she couldn’t fix. the way she messaged me back i could tell she was upset and now she doesn’t want to talk to me which i understand but i didn’t mean to hurt her feelings. i haven’t lashed out at anyone in a while and this time i could tell it was but it was too late. i had already sent the message and she read it and responded. to sum it up, i had said for her to respond to me or we couldn’t be friends but not exactly like that. i shortly realized how much i fucked up when she responded. this is a friendship i can’t afford to lose and now ive become suicidal again. i got memories from a few years ago where i had cut myself and i could’ve continued but i stopped. for the past hour ive been wishing i had gone all the way through with it.
#[TW: Suicide] I messed up again…
fickle linden
lusty flicker
[TW: Suicide] I messed up again…
teal mountain
To save your friendship, you should try to buy a present. Something he would really appreciates, and you give it with a text "sorry I really F##k up" . Keep yourself safe and dont hurt you at all, sometimes you can fail but if he was a true friend we will forgive you!
@fickle linden
stuck hull
I feel you
@teal mountain S Advise is good btw
I do admit, admiting u f###d up is an very hard thing but good luck i hope you manage to fix it.
fickle linden
I fucked up horribly and i think i just ruined my friendship with one of my best...
here’s a little update:
we made up and are back to talking (for the most part) but i’ve been experiencing flashbacks to the one moment where i was trying to end it all and it freaks me the fuck out every time. my boyfriend tried to comfort me but it’s hard with long distance because he can’t be next to me and comfort me that way.
teal mountain
here’s a little update:
we made up and are back to talking (for the most part) b...
You should try to forget, if he forgive you, you just have to not do the same problem. And it really hard to be in a relation ship on long distance good luck.
fickle linden
I feel like i fucked up once more. My friend has been getting suicidal and i feel like im one of the causes of her problems. im always messaging her and i feel like im a burden in her life. I feel that if she goes through, i will feel like i failed in life, i feel i would be the reason i allowed my friends death to happen.
to add on, my anxiety has been through the roof, my depression has been getting worse, and i might have what is called Bipolar Disorder so i feel like an absolute piece of shit. i constantly isolate myself in my room for hours on end so i can try and not end myself. ive also been stressed with school, keeping friendships, keeping my relationship, making sure i stay safe, etc.
teal mountain
Do you have a therapist? It's getting worse, and strangers on discord cant help you very much... if you were bipolar, and your medic agrees, you can have some pils with opium to restrain your crisis.
And i dont know what to say but Ask your parent to have meds
fickle linden
Do you have a therapist? It's getting worse, and strangers on discord cant help ...
i’ve tried therapy. it failed me. i’m hoping i can get meds to potentially help but it’s unlikely it would be the case where i need medication