#I feel like im a nobody..

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tender berry
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i honestly feel very suicidal and alone...ever since..i was a middle to a high schooler i felt very happy and didnt care about peoples judging, and i was being myself when i was 15 to 16 years old
but, after i turn 17 i started to notice that nobody likes a person who always causes conflicts, arguments and violence..even tho they mostly start the argueement and conflicts..and my dad compared me to one of my best relatives and almost like my brother figure who achieved big goals..and i always overthnk, am i a disappointment to my family, am i even good enough?..and i only thought about committing suicide..and plus my dad abused me physically and emotionally for fucking 4-5 years..he abused me when i was only 12..i just dont know what to do..do i even matter to anyone?. am i even important?...

real drum
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But yeah don't cause conflict and do violence, it's not really nice

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Well as for the dunno what to do part, just live, try to pursue your study, find friends, get a decent job so you don't have to depend on your dad, or rather, your abuser

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You don't have to matter to anyone, and there's always a chance to find someone, too

prisma path
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Hey
We do care about you and there will be others around you too
Please look into some resources about therapy or anything for your mental state as it seems very worrying

About your dad I'm agreeing with Aqami you'll move out at some point and leave him behind so f him, if abuse is a big problem please also search for help with that

You're valid, you're needed and most importantly I'm proud of you for opening up and fighting this long

Wish you all the help and strength you need, please keep fighting

tender berry
tender berry
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i dont usually start violence

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i have anger issues and im trying to calm myself down a lot

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since i think inner peace

real drum
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you are alive and living and that's enough, all the stuff about making someone proud is secondary

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the world is chaotic and mundane and scary enough

tender berry
real drum
tender berry
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speaking of which..

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i also carry the burden of many people i love and care about

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even tho they told me that im not a burden

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i still want them to feel happy

prisma path
tender berry
real drum
tender berry
brave sparrow
# tender berry i honestly feel very suicidal and alone...ever since..i was a middle to a high ...

You do matter. Even if it doesn’t feel like it right now — you’re important, and your pain is real. I’m so sorry you’re carrying so much, especially for so long. What you’ve been through — especially the abuse and comparison — isn’t fair. No one deserves that, and none of it is your fault.

It's heartbreaking how the world makes people feel like they're ‘too much’ for simply reacting to pain. You were never the problem for being expressive or emotional — that was survival. And comparing yourself to others, especially when someone you love and trust reinforces that comparison, can crush your self-worth. But their success doesn’t cancel your value.

You’re not a disappointment. You’re someone who's survived years of hurt — and that’s something powerful. The fact you’re still here, still reaching out, even in the middle of this storm, says more about your strength than any test score or life achievement ever could.

If no one's told you this today: I see you. You matter. And you are worthy of love, of peace, of a future that feels good to wake up to. Please, don’t carry this alone. There are people who care and who would listen. I do, too.

rancid prawn
brave sparrow
tender berry
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Honestly, every time i over think and doubt myself that I'll have a good life..

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Every god damn time, I overthink the future of myself

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Plus..I always feel like that I'm not important

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And everybody calls me stupid a lot

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Even tho i don't act stupid..that's just how my personality is

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And I'm just being myself

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And whenever I see my classmates

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They always are happy and laughing