Should i just accept it or does it fit with a description here?

[dark trellis]

I don’t know what I am. I keep looking at my body and it doesn’t feel right. But I don’t even know if it’s supposed to feel this way. Maybe I’m broken. Maybe I’m just making things up. But this doesn’t feel made up. It feels like something’s constantly wrong. My chest, my face, my voice — none of it feels like it belongs to me.

I look at the mirror and I don’t recognize what I see. I stare at my body and all I can think is: “That’s not me.” But then I question myself right after. What if I’m just confused? What if I’m wrong? What if this is all something I should be able to ignore? But I can’t. It’s everywhere.

[wise spruce]

this sounds like depersonalisation and it’s common to go with denial

but I am just an outsider to your struggles

[oblique rampart]

it could be body dysphoria, dysmorphia, or like ryder said depersonalization/dissociation. if this is something that affects you deeply in your daily life making you feel negative about yourself or your body im afraid it is too serious of a matter to be able to get help from a discord server and you should have a meeting with a therapist - you may ask your parents for it or go to a psychologist in your school, which should be free. in case neither options are possible i recommend doing research on those mentioned possibilities to try to figure out which sounds most like you and what treatment is recommended, as well as what you can do about it if professional help isnt available

[dark trellis]

I have a Psychologist, I had her now for 2 Hours and shes Testing me rn for ADD/ADHD

[oblique rampart]

depersonalization/dissociation are common in adhd so it is worth to mention those feelings to her

[dark trellis]

I will Speak with my Psychologist. I made now some reflexion about myself and wrote a Text that i will Show to my Psychlogist.