I've never felt empathy or guilt for anyone else and I genuinely think there's something wrong with me. I've never felt "normal" in my life so I've always felt distant from others, even my own family. I don't know why I'm like this, I just want people to understand me and my thought process, but I know that's a lot to ask so I don't usually talk in real life, which I why I don't have many friends, I think thats a bad thing because humans are social creatures
#I don't know how to word this
trim lake
old flame
Hi Hawaii, first off, I’m so sorry that you are feeling (or not feeling) this way. I want to start with I think a lot of people don’t feel “normal”. I don’t understand tone or body language or really any social norms. While it can suck feeling not normal and/or weird, I think everyone does. I have one friend outside of this server. Someone who I hang out with irl and I can say confidently that they like me. I also don’t talk a lot irl because I’m worried I will misread a situation or hurt someone. I’m not saying that to ask for pity, I’m saying it to relate and show that it’s not just you. You say that you want people to understand you and your thought process. So can I ask what it is.
(Also, you don’t have to share anything your not comfortable with, not trying to force anything /info)
trim lake
My thought process relies on vibes and vibes alone, for example, this kid in my class who ik for a fact will do some bad stuff in the future has the backup of everyone else in the class because they do not believe in what my vibes tell me (I personally don't blame them)
old flame
Vibes aren’t always a bad thing to go off of. As someone who relies on figuring out if someone will hurt me off of vibes, it has served me well (or at least better than my previous tactic of just blindly trusting) there have been times where people did not believe me based on my vibe but I was correct. If others make you uncomfortable, then it dosent matter why. You just know. I wish I could look at things from a vibe only point of view (I have a very logical pov with vibes mixed in)