of course, i was born to just be like everyone else. get educated, get a job, make my own family blah blah blah. but really, is there anything else besides that that i was created for? what if my real purpose of being alive. am i going to change this world entirely? was that why i was made? i dont feel useful here, truly like a waste of space- i feel like i dont fit anywhere so i dont see any point of being here just living day by day questioning my existence. if you're going to tell me, "oh well you should get engaged in more activies like sports or just random hobbies!" then dont respond at all. im sick of hearing that stuff when i have no interest in anything whatsoever. i would rather be dead then have to be alive here, its not even like my life is bad or anything. im just tired of not knowing why i was made. im not special to anyone, even if i am out of the total amount of how many people exist, that wont even matter. theyre just another family/friend mourning over my loss. the world isnt going to explode because of that. || im really waiting till i get to my lowest before trying to commit. || it could be soon, maybe could be tomorrow.
#i dont know why im here
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sometimes these ways that i feel are never good enough as if im faking it for attention. all these problems people vent about are so much worse than mine and it makes me consider my worth too, im just like anyone else. im sure someone else is feeling the same way i am so im nowhere near important. i wanna quit everything altogether, even ||self harm|| just because i have no motivation for anything.