i just dont think i will ever be okay, ive been depressed for the past 8 years and it's genetic as my dad has diagnosed crippling depression and has to take strong anti depressants and my mum knows ive been struggling but jokes about it and wont get me the help that i need.
#mind
scenic sage
unreal bough
Y'know... There's one thing about life. Nothing lasts forever. Including depression. You WILL get out of it.
scenic sage
Hopefully one day.
unreal bough
Hopefully one day.
If you want you can talk to me. My DMs are open. 🤍
rapid terrace
I can relate. I've struggled with depression for at least 5 years now, maybe longer seeing as my first ||su!c!dal|| thoughts came when I was 9 or 10. Between those years is questionable to me. But I can relate and my Dad has it too, as does his mom. It's not easy to live with but I understand and I'm also here for you
scenic sage
I can relate. I've struggled with depression for at least 5 years now, maybe lon...
thats weird because i was also 9/10 when i first almost ||attempted|| 🫂
i was showing signs of depression when i was about 7 up until now (15)
rapid terrace
I see... I understand that you think it's permanent but I really hope it's not for you. I really hope things can improve with your mental health because Ik it sucks
scenic sage
so my partner basically just told me to ||kms||
im am probably gonna leave them as much as i dont want to
unreal bough
so my partner basically just told me to ||kms||
What the fuck??
unreal bough
im am probably gonna leave them as much as i dont want to
I think that's for the best. It might be hard, but you have to be with someone that supports you.
scenic sage
yeah
scenic sage
im am probably gonna leave them as much as i dont want to
chat im not gonna do it today but i will at some point soon cus i am not very happy w them
scenic sage
chat im not gonna do it today but i will at some point soon cus i am not very ha...
theyre a system and this is what one of their alters just said to me..
"When u get back from holiday for a month there will be no distancing. There wont be any shitty excuses u will give zero attention. U will open up to them. I will constantly text them and u will be a LOVING partner to them. Is that understood. And after that month u wont go back to being a miserable avoiding sod u will keep doing it just less frequently. U focus on zero. I dont care how hard it is or what it does to u. Ur doing it."
wtf?? 
then they just said "Objections? Say one. I dare u."
ermmmm....
"U wouldnt like what id do if there was"
just creepy...
scenic sage
""U do not get to pick and choose what time is what and when we do what all the time. So either u sort it even if u break urself doing so or i leave. Final fucking chance spencer""
soo i think they might be a tad bit manipulative
scenic sage
theyre spam calling me rn???
scenic sage
Holy crap, yeah, definitely sounds manipulative. Run
im trying
rapid terrace
theyre spam calling me rn???
Block them
scenic sage
12 missed calls.
scenic sage
12 missed calls.
17 now
scenic sage
they stopped after 22 missed calls
scenic sage
turns out they're an EVEN SHITTIER person than i thought