frail marsh
I am having one of those moments where you don’t feel sad but not happy, feel a lot but still numb, like you are in 3rd person but still in 1st. I kinda feel like.. I just want to disappear but not fully. I want people to remember me and still have good memories and relationships but not be there. Like everyone has a clock keeping time moving forward but my clock just stops. I am still there but I am not. Like Ik I still have many many years left and still have many more opportunities in life.. but at the same time I feel like I amount to nothing and that I should just quit. Turn off the TV and walk away. Idk the only way I can describe it is like a PC and monitor, they work together and do amazing, but if you turn off the monitor the PC still running but you can’t see the screen. That’s kinda how I want to be ig. Still operating and still working and they know it is still on, but not there for people to see. A blank screen but still working behind