#I don’t feel like I can do this

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slate nymph
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I already was doing poorly, and being sick has made everything so much worse. I don’t have the energy to take care of myself, and I just keep getting worse and worse. I do nothing all day and then just cry. Today was ok I guess. I talked with a friend some. My throat still hurts though. There was something I was going to say, but I forgot. I just don’t feel good. I feel like crying and I feel like hurting myself but I don’t even have the energy right now for any of that. I feel lonely. I should go sleep and get some rest. I can see dishes piling up in the corner of my room. I brushed my teeth tonight, that’s good right? I also put away some clothes into my dresser. I don’t really have a dresser, it’s more shelves? I’m not sure. I’m scared to turn off my light. Not going to school tomorrow. I’m scared about school, when I get back, with work and stuff. I’m cold. I don’t want to turn out my light I’m scared I’m going to start to see and hear things again and I’m going to start crying again. I dont feel good. I just don’t know what to do. I can’t even take care of myself, just pathetic. I look like a mess and I feel even worse.

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I don’t know how much of that made sense

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I just feel lonely

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please I don’t know what to do

slate nymph
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Today was better. I mostly stayed in my room and listened to a podcast but I didn’t cry, and I got out of the loop of not showering. Still sick.

slate nymph
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I don’t feel good anymore

slate nymph
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visit to the doctor went okay. No flu or strep or anything. I kinda excepted to be there for like 10 minutes, but it took an hour because the person there wouldn’t shut up about how I should join Boy Scouts (they know I’m trans) and they wouldn’t shut up about me going to school and they insisted on fucking with my ears (don’t know what the hell that has to do with a sore throat) and now my ears hurt and my hearing is all messed up and I couldn’t make eye contact the whole way through and I was trying not to cry and I kept scratching and cutting myself with my fingernails because I didn’t know what else to do and everything hurts now and I’m back in bed finally

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I’m not sure why im writing everything here, it just seems better than venting in #💬｜the-greatest-general-to-ever-exist or something

slate nymph
slate nymph
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I feel really awful

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I don’t know why

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I don’t know what happened

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I was doing good…

slate nymph
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I spent dinner crying in the bathroom and now im hiding in my room and crying and it’s so dark and so lonely and I can’t stop crying and I don’t know why I feel like this and I can’t look at myself without crying harder and I don’t know what to do

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help

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I know no one sees this but

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I don’t know

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I don’t know

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please help

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please

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I don’t know where else to put this

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I dont have anywhere else

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is anyone there

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anyone?

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please

slate nymph
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why are people so mean

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I didn’t do anything I didn’t do anything

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I hate them so much

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I hate being like this

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I hate crying

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I hate myself

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nobody’s even reading this

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I don’t even know anymore

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I don’t know why I bother writing things here

sharp gust
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i actually know exactly how you feel phoebe

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i've been feeling the same way the past day or two

slate nymph
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oh

slate nymph
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im really stressed about school work and I can’t stop crying and I cant get up and I feel so disgustinf and im so scared that I’m annoying people

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please help I don’t know what to do

slate nymph
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bbad day an d im just making my it worse for myself

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what am I supposed to do

slate nymph
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fuckfuckfuck everything hurts

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pains everywhere

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started this morning just been getting worse

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seeing shadows and stuff now

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im scared

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I’ll tell someone tomorrow

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shadow people and stuff can’t hurt you right

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scared

primal sage
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@slate nymph

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im sorry that’s happening to you : (